What more could go wrong?

I am on leave tomorrow. For all the sad people out there who has no idea what “on leave” is, it means not having to go to work. I am on leave because the market I service is closed, and my service is not required, therefore 1 day AL (annual leave, yes I included this bracket to insult your intelligence) is deducted from my entitlement so that I can get paid and not having to log in into my phone.

It's Australia day tomorrow, god bless them, they really need a day off to take a breath from the flood and be ready to pick up what's left. My sincere hope that they will recover from this soon enough.

The world is never short of crisis, as big as the flood in Australia, as small as the personal matters in individual families. Just minutes ago, my mother has walked into my room to tell me more crisis that are happening within the family.

It's a little sad to mention all these but they are just things that have happened, talking about them wouldn’t make them worse nor it would make them turn out better. I talk about them just to talk about them, maybe to help myself think what are the most appropriate ways to deal with the circumstances. There really aren't much that I can do at the moment.

My mother has 5 sisters, my eldest and the third aunt are married, my second aunt, fifth aunt and sixth aunt are not married. Life has not been kind to some of them, some of them has already see better of their life years ago. For my fifth aunt it's already very little left for her to see.

She was diagnosed with some nervous system failure about a decade ago, a surgery only worsen the situation and eventually she was immobilized and had to live with the help of others. So has been relying on my second aunt's help for all these years. For my second aunt, age has caught up and she is finding it difficult now to carry my fifth aunt up and down on a daily basis. Fifth aunt's condition has been deteriorating over the years, and recently she is beginning to lose her sight. I could only imagine the despair that follows when sun light never wakes up with you anymore, she has to put it up with the condition. She was never someone that could take defeats well, more over a defeat that she was never given a fair chance to fight. I feel sorry for her but there's nothing I could do about it, there's nothing my mom could do about it.

Fifth aunt was admitted into the hospital last night, as the last of the light has left her world, they were trying to see if anything is salvageable from her eyes, for her to regain some sort of minimum ability of sight. Unfortunately the chances are slim but I guess there's no harm trying.

My mom came back from hospital several hours ago only to deliver more bad news. With my fifth aunt already admitted into the hospital, my sixth aunt is diagnosed with breast cancer earlier today. Doctor said not 100% confirmed but it's at least 90% certain. What's left is to do a further test to see if the tumor is safe to be removed by surgery. I didn't know what to say when I heard the news, I didn't show any apparent sadness or emotion. Mom was calm when she told me this, I was calm too. There's no point to be emotional at this point for something that has already happened, what's left now is to deal with it while we still can. I am probably going to spend my day off tomorrow driving them around between home and hospital.

What a way to spend a day off. I only wish that it would save something or someone. Then it'd be worth it.

Who knows what to expect next. What more can go wrong. I have no idea.

Suddenly I am starting to think life sucks. Although not completely.

Signing off.