I joined this reputable company about 2 years ago.
I was offered freedom, challenges, and flexibility. All I need to do, is to be as good as I can be at work.
For almost a year, I have good leaders, good work mates. It was like a dream job, besides the pay. The pay was not bad at start, but after 2 salary adjustments and 2 increments that didn’t seem like anything, friends that have started off much later have already climbed beyond my salary level. Being a senior for 2 years but if fresh grads joined the company, they'd be taking the same salary that I’m taking. I can’t help but to start to feel quite disturbed.
Anyways, for almost a year, I have had a job that was quite satisfying, always feeling that I have so much to learn; leaders that I can always look up and depend upon; seniors that are always willing to help. I'm free to do work the way I want it, as long as my performance proves that my way is efficient. I enjoyed so much that I am always at the top of my things and I was always happy to learn or do anything that's not even included in my job description, as long as there's something to learn.
I enjoyed so much freedom, as I am given my task in the morning, and I am free to manage my work load on my own, planning on when and what to finish, when to take a break from work, and lunch time is just a discussion away with my work mates. At the end of the day when I check out how much work I have accomplished, I usually feel proud and satisfied and always would look forward to the next day I could get myself to accomplish more.
Not anymore.
I came across an article on the internet one day; let me paste it here to share a little.
10 ways you know that you have a bad boss:
1. The knot you get in your gut whenever you have to deal with him. You never know which person is going to show up — the nice, benevolent manager or the insane, angry hophead.
2. The feeling you get when you have to get dressed every morning. You know, the sensation that life wasn’t meant to be like this, that nobody knows what the day ahead will hold — and not in a good way, either.
3. He’s either absent — or omnipresent. On days when he is supposed to be there, leading the way, guiding his people with a firm and gentle hand, he is nowhere to be found. Yet on days when everybody is executing the plan with distinction, there he is, standing in the middle of everything, gumming up the works, micro-managing, driving everybody crazy.
4. His word cannot be trusted. He lies when it suits him, and worst of all, he believes his lies once they are uttered.
5. He is never wrong. Sometimes he may be “misinformed,” or “misled by others,” but he is never, ever, wrong. Those who think he might be in error had better keep that opinion to themselves.
6. All credit goes to him. All blame goes to others.
7. His only loyalty is to herself. More times than you can count, you have seen him sell people down the river who used to be his favorites. If there is trouble, he's the first one to throw his colleagues and subordinates overboard into the shark-infested waters. Strangely, he is also the first person to question other people’s loyalty.
8. Work hours are hard to predict. There are long stretches of unmanaged, vague, pointless activity or inactivity, followed by short bursts of frenzy. Weekends are not safe. Vacations are not honored. Your time is not your own.
9. His door is closed most of the time. Particularly after lunch.
10. He's the main topic of conversation. Wherever coworkers gather, all they talk about is what an annoying, hurtful, scary, irrational nutbag the boss is. And when a bad boss goes, he dies unmourned — except perhaps by the one person at the office who did his bidding.
Honestly speaking, I found all the above so true because what’s happening right now is that we actually have someone like that in our department, that met all the above signs. Like, exact match, if you know what I mean. Hooray… but not exactly that’s something to celebrate for, it’s totally the opposite of hitting jackpot.
I’m going through hell.
Honestly speaking, I really dun hate this job. I am reasonably capable of doing what I am doing. I enjoy the people that I work with, minus the person that I am talking about.
The most recent big problems I have with him, is him trying to micro manage every single little thing in the department. Especially micro managing me. I am a living human being, I am not a puppet. In a normal world, no one can stand being micro managed, especially when you are not doing anything wrong but someone is just picking something wrong out of you because everything else you did was right.
Let me briefly describe what he is doing to me.
Imagine someone keeps peeking over the cubical to look at your screen every other minute, to see what you are doing, and whenever you are caught doing something that seems irrelevant to work, he provides a feedback.
Imagine someone keeps peeking over the cubical to see if you are holding your phone, and as soon as you are spotted with your phone, he provides a feedback.
Imagine someone keeps peeking over the cubical to see if your phone is on your table, if the phone is spotted on the table, he provides a feedback.
Imagine someone keeps peeking over the cubical to see if your phone is being charged, if your phone is spotted being charged, even if it’s not anywhere obvious nor you are playing with it, he provides a feedback nonetheless
Imagine someone keeps peeking over the cubical to see if you are reading the newspaper, if you are caught reading your newspaper, even if you have not started working, or you have completed whatever you are required to do for the day, he still provides a feedback.
Imagine someone keeps peeking over the cubical to see if you sitting at your cubical, if you have left your cubical for a tad bit too long by his standard be it your bottle took too long to fill, or you went and get food, or you spent a little longer in toilet to take a dump, he provide a feedback.
Imagine someone keeps bringing up what you just completed a few minutes ago, and questions why you did a BAU task the way you did it, seemingly that he has zero knowledge of the day to day process and why you have done it, even though he is YOUR DIRECT BOSS, and he has been in this company a year and a half, AND HE IS SUPPOSED TO BE AN EXPERT IN THESE. And provides a feedback.
Imagine someone keeps peeking over the cubical to see what you are doing, and you are caught being efficient at what you do, so happens that you have completed your work before the end of the day. Instead of a compliment, he provides a feedback.
I am sorry if you have not been driven insane until reading this point, because I have. This is exactly what is happening to me, only more. I cannot spend more time in listing more because if I continue to do so, I will probably stand the hell up right now, and saw his head off.
I’m not ready to go to jail; I still love my family and my girlfriend.
Lucky him.
I am now so desperate to get away from this. Either I get my work station changed, or I murder him and get him replaced, or I suicide and get myself charged.
Or I quit my job.
Damn. I dun want to pick the easiest option from that list. Not yet.
But heck, day by day he’s driving me up the wall and everyone has got a limit to these kinda shits. Let’s hope I won’t murder him any time soon.
Desperately in need of a session with some friends to bitch about all of what has been happening and let off some steam.
Suddenly I feel a need for alcohol, although I am by no means anything near a drinker.
Signing off…
