What are you looking for!?

What are you looking for?

people look for various things in life. some people search for it aggressively while others merely look on for the rest of their life. which category do you belong?

I moved on from my previous role since October last year. officially it's a promotion. how I look at it? I'd like to keep it to myself but here I'm going to talk about how others looked at it.

I'm not a humble person. I know what I can do and can't do and so I will quote my abilities accordingly. I will not hesitate to take credits as long as I rightfully deserve it. on the flip side I will not hesitate to compliment those who have done well because just like me, they deserve it. I do not think I brag about what I do but my girlfriend tells me sometimes I do it without knowing it, probably it's time to control.

Jealousy is such a stupid thing. It's probably not good to attract any. Sometimes a few idiots just aren't happy people found their way up but they ate stuck below still playing the blame game. They don't realise it's them who's gotta change.

once there's a friend I respect a lot have told me, if you choose to stay out of the lime light then you will never be noticed. I think he is most definitely right. there's always two sides of a coin. from my experience I know if you stay in the lime light for too long you tend to be targeted. it's good to allow others to have their turn to bust a groove.

with that said, I know for a fact there are always some assholes in this world that think differently. they would think no one other than themselves deserve credits from other people's good work, no matter how little they have contributed. never hesitates to jump out and steal credits but always try to back down taking responsibilities. some of these people are even slightly more powerful than others and never hesitate to exercise their power to get rid of good people that got into their way. or so they thought.

leadership is a big piece in any organisation, unfortunately bad leadership is also always a big piece in the downfall of an organisation. I have been working in this organisation for 3 years. I have seen my share of inspirational leaders but unfortunately have also seen more than a couple of rotten eggs. I have seen opportunities given to good people but have seen even more good people gotten rid of by bad leaders. leaders who think no one other than themselves are allowed to shine.

I wonder when is this bad cycle going to end, when is the balance going to shift. more bad people need to go and more good talents need to stay. I am lucky I had and still have some awesome colleagues to work with. one of these days I worry that might end, where every new person than comes are nothing but just another zombie, brain dead.

my mentor in the current team is leaving the organisation at the end of this month, one day before my birthday. better opportunity awaits her. I'm glad for her but I cant help to feel sad that another good teacher, good friend and most importantly a great talent have no where else to go but out of the doors of this office. watching people leave is becoming a routine. a routine I hope is going to break.

what are you looking for in your career? money? achievements? or both? I know none of us are looking for happiness, that's for sure. You've gotta be very lucky or unbelievably stupid to try to search for happiness in your career.

I know I'm not.

signing off.